Susan Morrison Jones (63) 2015
Well! to quote Primo Levi ' but to feel strong, to measure yourself at least once, to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing the blind,deaf stone alone with nothing to help you but your hands and your own headWinter is coming ! to add a quote from Game of Thrones.
I can't decide. My dogs are eager to be off and away, they have itchy feet too. Caesar and Jake are the corner stone of my life. They are four legged but they are my family, my friends. We have amazing discussions where I get to do all the talking and they patiently listen, give me a little encouraging lick, or snuggle to let me know they are still attentive. But they can't answer me. I can only guess what they want. The only thing I am certain of , for them, is we will be together.
This is where I am finally at, the penultimate moment. Do I go NOW ? or do I wait a few weeks and get some money under my belt ?
What to do is driving me crazy. The sun is shining, the weather is beautiful, I can hear the sea in my head. Legolas in the final chapters of The Lord of The Rings says he can hear the sea calling him and comments he will never be at peace again....me too! I have missed my beach, my beautiful five miles of unspoiled gorgeous sand, sea and dunes. I have missed my friends so much. Need the wild Welsh Hills and the deep dark forests. Its like having an amputation of the spirit.
But the sensible side of me is saying wait, wait, wait. A Camper Van would have answered a great many issues and I would have been gone the day I had the keys, but it isn't too be. Out of my financial capabilities and so its the car, the dogs, a few material possessions and the all important decision.......when ?
but it will be soon now. I can't scratch that itchy foot syndrom out of my personality, its there, its permanent. SO now.......its that moment when I have no choices beyond now...or then, but the when ultimate moment is November the 1st.
Tally Ho indeed
