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| Harlech Sunset 2006 |
Well you have read my back ground, I am no saint, but neither am I one of the great sinners in the world. I have lots of things going on in my world right now reaching a crossroads isn't the comfiest situation. At 63 I just came to realise if I am to have an adventure it will really have to be a now or never situation. That is precisely what it is, by the time I am in my 70's which lets be honest is only 6 and a half years away....I might be physically, mentally and emotionally unable to comply with the dream, the desire which has haunted me for several years now.
I am going to be travelling through the country to find where I belong. I haven't a clue where to go, nor do I have a proper plan as yet, but I will do what is needed to make sure I get things right.
My dogs are a worry, I don't want them feeling lost and lonely, of course they are coming with me, they are a comfort and a pleasure and my companions.
They ask for nothing more than a walk and some food, that's all and I love them to bits. So I am off and away to some place I can be me in.......but where is another matter.
I am test running doing my adventure in the car...but know its a camper van I need, this is just an emergency solution if I fail to get enough finances together to buy an actual van.
I packed my car as a trial run yesterday, I just about managed to squeeze in all my possessions, I have to leave the boot of the car free for the dogs to sleep in so I made the bottom of the boot hold my suitcases with a few clothes in and then put a duvet and a sleeping bag over the top. My boys will ride in the back in a roomy boot , peering out of the windows at the people driving behind. They will like that.
Of course I can stop frequently and let them out, give them a short walk somewhere so they don't get too bored, they will enjoy that too, all those new smells and exciting new spaces.
After my experiences in my forties as a homeless person for me, it is a case of 'get used to it again' I need to find the right lay byes, the right spaces where I can sleep over in safety. Many council car parks forbid that now, they don't like you sleeping in your car and they don't like you sleeping in a camper van in their car park either so those sort of places are out of my choice box.
I will find little spaces, away from traffic and away from other people and just get my head down.
The logistics of finding a loo when you need one are easy enough, head into the local town, park up somewhere close by and a quick dash in and out and thank the gods for Tesco, Asda and Morrisons all of whom tend to have a decent enough loo available.
I need to make sure I haven't over packed, clothes are an issue, when you have really nice clothing and you have to give it away it doesn't half hurt the old ego, and making sure your clean is important too. I used to (and will again) go into the disabled loo's and have a wash and a clean up, the facilities are usually quite good in disabled loos and as I walk with a crouched back sometimes when its really sore, then I don't get many people questioning my right to its use. Mind you, going in looking scruffy and coming out dressed in clean jeans, clean T shirt and a fresh face with soaking wet hair doesn't go down too well so that sort of visit is usually a one off because I am leaving the area.
Food is never an issue, apart from the fact lots of places sell hot food on the hoof, there are supermarkets and cafes and of course there is always the old primus stove to heat water and make a coffee. That's my one luxury, proper, decent coffee. I love the stuff so when I boil a pan of water on the little primus stove I have, I have real coffee grounds and enjoy that coffee like it was manna from heaven.
Time isn't an issue either, my photography is important to me, so lots of images, I love making little videos so that's another little moment filled, I have research to do because I am doing my genealogy and I draw and paint so my art things are with me and I will use them eventually. I also love research and so I am going to do some of the things I have always wanted to do....collect fairy stories from the old days from the local libraries and make sure I have as many as possible to record.
One day, I will have my own place again, when I do, I will take all my research and happily collate the evidences and the stories and re write them into modern language and perhaps that will be my legacy to the word, a new book on mythology :)
you never know.
so its getting closer, the time I will move on, its getting closer and I am getting through the cold, hearthurt and miserable stage and beginning to look ahead, to a new way of being me.....its on its way...........
The Last Great Adventure, The Last Walk.........I am really going to do it
Tally Ho!
